For the last 4+ years I have been mommy. I was still Melissa during the day the first year while I was working. But now I am just mommy. I don't think that Melissa exists anymore. This really worries me, someday I want to go back to work and have some kind of a life other than mommy. I want to be around adults. But then I get to thinking, I have not worked at a job in 3 years. What if when I do go back to work I can not handle it. What if Melissa does not come back, what if she is gone for good?!? It is so scary thinking about this. Not really knowing who you are anymore.
Well mommy is heading to bed now. The monkeys did not sleep good last night and neither did I. Maybe tonight will be better!
2 weeks ago